The latest news.
I've had a fairly rocky few weeks on the mental health front, mostly thanks to lack of sleep. I don't know whether sleep deprivation has caused me to have a bumpy ride, or whether the lack of sleep is a symptom in itself, but it's been horrible. It's no fun being wide awake at 3 or 4am night after night after night. I tried all the usual home remedies, tried sleeping tablets and so on, but nothing seemed to work.
Finally I saw my psychiatrist and he added a new medication, mirtazapine, into my already sizeable pharmaceutical diet. He said it would make me feel sleepy if I take it at night. I'm hoping it'll help, though it's probably a bit early to tell. Fingers crossed.
The boys went for their regular kidney check ups last week. Things are ok, but unfortunately Joe's kidneys are struggling now, despite the medication he's on. This is in line with what's expected with Alport Syndrome, but that doesn't make it any easier. Thankfully Joe's very pragmatic and says because he feels well in himself, he doesn't worry too much. I'm glad he doesn't worry; it's hard enough to be 16 and about to sit your GCSEs without serious illness thrown into the mix. The doctor wants to increase his medication and with any luck this will protect his kidneys for a good few more years.
Evan's doing really well on the kidney front, he's lucky enough to have escaped the medication regime so far. He's being closely monitored and for now, he's fine without it. Both boys are very deaf, but their hearing aids are fantastic and adjustments are made at school to help. They are lucky enough to have a fantastic teacher of the deaf, although I'm not sure whether this will continue once Joe goes into sixth form.
Joe did his mock GCSEs a few weeks ago and got some fantastic results. We have a parents evening for Evan this Thursday and we honestly don't know what to expect because he hardly tells us anything that goes on at school. He's definitely the strong, silent type (a bit like his Dad!) I do worry about him, though he tells me that things are 'fine.' It's a tricky one, he's a 14 year old boy, he's shy and he's autistic. I never know which of these things is involved when he struggles to communicate with us. I just try to let him know that I'm here for him, whatever he has going on. Overall he's quite a contented person, I think. He loves films, playing the drums and the Xbox.
Practical matters are fairly steady, which is great because the last five or six years have been eventful. We've moved house, the boys have started high school, we lost our beloved greyhound Barney and adopted a lovely new hound called Kuro. Our new(ish) home has turned out to be perfect for a family with two teenagers who need a bit of space. They tend to commandeer the basement, so it's almost (but not quite) an adult free zone.
My mental health situation is manageable. The meds I'm on keep me fairly stable (subject to the odd blip here and there). I recently started doing peer support work with Mind, which I really enjoy. I'd love to study again if my health permits, but I need to take things one step at a time. I've learned that starting things isn't my problem, it's being well enough for long enough to be able to see them through. One day though, maybe...
