It's been a while since I updated my blog and I thought it was about time I wrote something.
Things haven't been good for me recently. On the positive side, I enjoyed a family holiday to Cumbria over Christmas. On the negative, it was whilst I was away that my mental health collapsed again. I'm attending day hospital at the moment because I'm not well enough to be alone at home. It's more manageable than being a psychiatric inpatient but it's still pretty intense and has caused some disruption to family life and our usual routine. We're coping with help from family, mainly in relation to the boys. I'm grateful to them for stepping in, even though I feel guilty that I'm not well enough to do much parenting.
Life isn't much fun for me at the moment but I'm hoping things will improve as we head towards the spring. Going back to work is a long way off, both in terms of time (I'm not due back until September) but also in relation to how well I am. I'm looking forward to being well enough to think again though.
It's a funny thing, mental health. When you're in a good place with it, you sort of take it for granted and expect it to continue serving you well. When you're in a bad place with it, you'd give anything to feel as 'good' as you felt on your bad days when you were well!
I'm feeling optimistic today. Being at hospital is definitely helping. The nurses are lovely and I'm impressed by the way the mental health team have put together a package of support for me. They phone me when I'm at home to check that I'm ok and coping. I think I'll be there another fortnight or so, then discharged to the community team. I haven't been around much on social media so I'll take this opportunity to wish you all a happy new year! Xxxxx
